Wednesday, November 30, 2016

What does "Life" mean?

Why when things get tough do we say “that’s life”
But not when things are good?

How does one describe life?

With each breath we breathe
With each movement we make that’s life….

But isn’t there more?

Is “life” just the heartbeat and breath?
Or is it something more in depth?

Is “life” just physical or is it also spiritual?
Can you be emotionally dead but still be “alive”?

What defines life?
sound, smell, feeling, taste, and sight?

Maybe it’s each cell in our bodies
or the bark of a tree.

Maybe life is in the wind
Maybe it’s more than we can see.

When somebody says “you need to get your life back”….
What does that really mean?

Did we really lose our “life” or maybe just take a different one?

Maybe our “life” is each moment and not our plans.
If we take a different trail when we walk, do we die?
Not usually.

life….such a small word with many different meanings…


What is life to you?

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

One year on

Last week was Jonathan and my anniversary; and boy! what a year it has been! We have grown and matured a lot over the last year as we have tackled so many challenges. We joke and say if we could get through this past year, we can do anything!

After our wedding we applied ourselves and finished our last semester strong (it was only 3 weeks so not terribly hard to do). We continued to work for an additional week before we moved out of the house. Jonathan was ordained on Dec. 30th and at 6:00am on Dec. 31st, we boarded our first flight to head to the Dominican Republic. That was hard. I was tough throughout the whole moving and saying goodbye process, but on the train to the terminal it hit me. But I kept myself together because let’s face it, I don’t cry in public. Sure, I buried my head in Jonathan’s shoulder for a few minutes, but that is all I would allow myself to do. By 1:15pm we had landed in the DR and we started the process of entering this country that I would now call home.

The first 2 weeks we stayed in housing because our home was a garage with no electricity or plumbing. A mission team came in and put in windows, an entryway, created a doorway and closed off 2 others. Jonathan then installed electricity and plumbing for our kitchen and laundry. Without their help, I have no idea how far along our house would actually be!

We came with a some money thanks to savings and wedding gifts, but even as cheap as things are here, it took a lot of money to get our home livable. We started applying for jobs and within a week I had an interview. I got hired to be a teacher and would start the following Monday.

My first day as a teacher was hard! Language barrier, new students, first year teacher stress, trying to figure out the system, meeting teachers and students, trying to learn the schedule, on and on it goes. I came home absolutely exhausted but I had something weighing on my mind even more than my first day of teaching. That night I finally took the pregnancy test that I had been too scared to take earlier….it came back positive!

I will admit. Joy and excitement were not the first reactions I had. More like a burst of tears from being overwhelmed. This was not our plan, I was a newlywed in a new country. Shoot, I don’t even speak Spanish, our house isn’t finished and now a baby is on the way??? Oy vey!

I spent the next 24 hours just trying to process this new information. I approached one of the other teachers who was also pregnant, but more importantly, was an English speaker. She helped me with basic stuff and then I had to tell my new boss that I was pregnant, but I did nopt know it at the time I was hired. She understood and so I began to adjust to this new course God had put me on. Fortunately, I had a trip to the States plan for residency paperwork 10 days later.

After arriving in NYC I found out that day that residency wasn’t going to happen. The DR has new procedures about it and I received conflicting information. However, I was unable to return to the DR for 2 weeks because I had a non-refundable, Non-moveable flight. I called Mom and headed to Nashville the next day.

After returning to the DR the routine of work, house reno and such began. Not having a car meant I had to do public transportation adding 3 hours to my day. Jonathan soon got a job though and he could at least travel a good part of the way with me. However, the Lord smiled and 3 weeks after getting a job, Jonathan resigned and began teaching at the same school as me. He could now be with me the whole way! However, we both soon found a need for a car and so we decided to go ahead and invest in a used car being sold by a co-worker of ours. Morning sickness and the extra-long commute was very hard for me physically and emotionally. In May we acquired Jarvis and he has been a lifeline several times.

Summer was full of heat, heat and more heat. I went home for 5 days in June because I had slipped back into horrible depression and being pregnant, I refused to even inquire about medication. The short but sweet trip home was like a breath of air to a drowning person. Although I was physically fine, it was a mental and emotional emergency that I get home.

Between my return to the DR and Amos’ delivery, life was fairly routine. The normal power outages, heat, doctor’s appointments and ministry; but the heat was just terrible. I finally agreed to finance an air conditioner and in August, I could finally have a house that was cool and did not make me sick when I was home. Up to this point the AC I had was in the car or at some of the stores we shopped at. Our school does not have AC and other than big stores and some doctors’ offices, it is not common here.

September came and I was within a month of delivery so doctor’s appointments increased to weekly. I had some medical difficulties the previous 2 months so the doctor was being extra cautious about everything. I went for a routine sonogram and discovered the umbilical cord was around Amos’ neck. The doctor ordered a special sonogram to double check and make sure he was not in distress (he wasn’t, happy as a clam he was) and decided I needed a c-section. I got this verdict on Thursday and was scheduled for a c-section the following Monday at 39 weeks. Fortunately, my Mom arrived in the DR on Sunday, the day before Amos’ arrival.

The c-section itself was traumatic as no one was allowed in and so I had to do it by myself without understanding what was going on or being said. However, Amos was born strong and healthy and has only thrived since his birth (Praise God).

Now, a year after getting married I find myself not only adjusting to married life, but motherhood, ministry life and living in a construction zone. Although our house is very livable and as homey as I can make it; it is in no way finished. However, baby man doesn’t seem to mind, it’s more me trying to clean and such that minds.   

But, the Lord is good and faithful! We have overcome it and can put one notch on our belt, with hopefully many more to come. We are now getting Amos’ papers so that he can be a dual citizen which has proven to be a nightmare, as most governmental things are. Our deadline with the DR is Friday, after that there is a penalty, however, Jonathan should be on the 2nd to last or last step today…after that it’s off to the embassy with a prayer that they rush papers without us having to pay a rush fee. I would love to visit my family before my maternity leave expires at the end of December so they can all meet Amos. Adonai has been faithful and if he wants, I will go home, it is just looking impossible currently. But, I have a strong healthy baby and a relationship that has withstood wind, fire and rain (literally and figuratively), so daynu.


Until next time, may Adonai bless you.

Wednesday, November 9, 2016

Election Day

I delayed until today to write this post because I wanted to see the results of this Presidential election. I deliberately don’t post anything political, so may choice will not be discussed. However, there are a few things I want to talk about in regards to this election.

            This is the most divided election I have seen. I have been genuinely surprised by the choice of some of my friends as to who they voted for. My facebook feed for the last month or more has been very heavy with political posts as people practiced their freedom of speech on social media. The last 24 hours though have been a real eye opener. Neither candidate was a good choice but we had to choose the “lesser of two evils”; which makes me ask two questions:
1)      What decides the lesser evil? And 2) why did we get to that position in the first place?

Let me start with the second question first.  Considering how many candidates there were at the beginning, how did we get it down to Trump and Hillary? In all honesty, I am not surprised at Hillary getting the Democratic nomination. She is the wife of a former president, has run before, and is of course, a woman. Combine that with her experience, I am sure the democrats thought she had a fighting chance to win where as their other candidates did not. However, Trump winning the Republican nomination continues to amaze me. How did he beat Carson, Cruz and others? My guess is money has a lot to do with it. However, Trump is also of the generation that has the most active voters. He talks like them and has the same values (minus the degrading of women) as them. Maybe that is why he won the nomination.

            Now for the second question. This one is tough. What defines the lesser of two evils? Everyone has their own criteria. It depends on what is os most importance to you. Some would say gun control, others abortion, still others say gay rights, a few say their political stance with foreign countries like Iraq, Iran etc. So is there really a way to define the “lesser” of two evils? Not really. We all view and interpret scripture differently so what you would say are scriptural issues, others might disagree with. For example, I found out that more people from my belief system voted for a candidate more than the other because of abortion. To them, that was the most important thing. So, they decided the candidate against abortion, was the lesser of two evils. However, I have many friends, that that think racism and degrading of women should not be allowed and they voted for the other candidate because to them, that was the lesser of two evils. It’s all in your viewpoint and interpretation of scripture,

            Let me just clarify something. Due to my surprise pregnancy and all the hassle and things associated with it, I forgot to sign-up for absentee voting so I did not vote. (Baby first!) And I also did not closely follow the candidates throughout their campaigning. Everything I know has come from family or friends.

            That being said, Trump has been elected President. So, regardless of who you voted for, America decided Trump was the better choice. As believers, we have a duty to pray for him because he will be in leadership over us. We need to pray for him to have wisdom above all else. Trump will now re[present one of the most powerful countries in the world. We must pray for him.


            And that is that. Until next week. May Adonai bless and keep you.